You do what you need to

My morning today was 2pm.

I made cookies today. And I washed up. And I watched Gossip Girl.

And thats it. I tried to navigate the Centrelink website, but found it too difficult to do.

Im not down or lazy or depressed or suicidal. I've just got nothing to look towards and need to refuel.

Fruit of the Moment: Burnt Wholegrain Mustard

My box hurts

I got up so early and just remember thinking; why?

I did need to drive Mum to pick up her ex pets. But that about wraps it up for today. Nothing else was required of me. Oh yeah, except for my trip to the doctors. Big help that was. Apparently I can't run anymore, and I need to see a physiotherapist. I'm told they cost a butt-load of cash so its pretty hopeless at the moment. Oh, and also I should talk to my family and friends about being depressed because they all have university degrees in phycology.

I finished up Dollhouse. It was lame 'they' axed yet another good show.

Tonight possibly be the first night in a while that I sleep in a bed. I haven't deserved one lately and the floor reminds me of Buck's Rock. But I've developed a sore throat and shouldn't continue floor sleeping just in case it's making me sick as well.

Fruit of the Moment: Mango Cheesecake

4 shizle

With very little sleep due to watching more Dollhouse episodes than planned last night, I drove into Sydney Domestic Airport. There, I found some really awful coffee along with two Wollongong residents returning home from their Melbourne holiday.

So, I took them home and watched more Dollhouse.

I just seem to have no reason to get working on a resume or a portfolio or any job hunting.

I've just got nothing to look towards. No one to answer for and no responsibilities. Getting a Job now will start me on the path to a mortgage and later, a prison of discontentment. How many days can I survive without having to face being locked in a prison of my own making? Not many.

Fruit of the Moment: Secret Coconut

Are you already here?

The days are starting to melt together.

One day becomes another in a series of circumstances leading to nowhere.

Today for instance, I visited a Nan Tien Temple. Reportedly the largest Buddhist temple in the southern hemisphere. I was catching up with a friend from Wollongong, and rather than the standard coffee, he suggested the vegetarian cafe there for lunch.

I wasn't really in the mood for a debrief on my state of woe-is-me today, so I was surprised at spending the whole time answering questions about why America was so shit, and how much woe-is-me there is at the moment.

In anycase, this paved way for an evening alone with Dominos online delivery service and Snow Falling on Cedars. Unfortunately, it couldn't hold my interest for long, so I watched 6 episode of Dollhouse instead.

Fruit of the Moment: Stroll

it seems like it does happen to you alot

When losing a wallet, it is rather important not to panic.

This is what I did today for two hours. I panicked and rummaged and ransacked and emptied contents of bins. I turned furniture upside down, frightened the cat and ran up the street in what I wore to bed hoping to find my brown leather wallet by the side of the road by some miracle.

Good thing that my sister had last night distracted me as I was getting out of my car in the rain. It seems my wallet slipped underneath my car jack on the passenger side, so it was pretty well hidden even for a thorough search of the car.

Fruit of the Moment: Rum and Raisin

I'm glad I wore underwear now

The Coast track. Last year around this time(ish) we trekked down the east coast of Australia for 30kms. This year, we did it again. In the rain. And with more people.

My sister and her partner joined forces with his mate Chris and her bestie Diana. Also, even after all the goading and high heel references, Aneesa didn't make the hike. Sean and I both agreed she never would have made it anyway :)

Starting at Bundeena and ending at Otford was our 19 mile walking journey of funness.

This morning, having prepared no clothes for the trip I thought it would be okay to borrow a pair of Glen's shorts and this rain jacket thingy he had. I would have literally been soaked if I didn't. Also, pantless. Also, it was lucky I had a belt because the pants were a little too big.

The journey which was overcast, cold and rainy took a little over 8 hours. Not including driving time of course. I managed to ever scrape out an idea for the Macarthur Playwriting Festival, which I shall be writing soon.

Pity chucking out last night's junk didn't stop Coles from stocking more of the same stuff today tho.

Fruit of the Moment: Tuna by itself

The pirates hid the treasure on the spaceship

You know you're a lucky guy when a 5 year old screams your name and runs towards you in a crowded room of strangers with reckless abandon and gives you the biggest hug known to mankind.

I happen to have dined with Tuneil today, both at lee and me & Diggies. We took Noah to the beach after Diggies and I enjoyed eating normal food for a day. Of course I went overboard, but I will get to that.

It was amazing to share a really calm day with two great people chatting about things so dramatically looming about our heads. Also, about sisters.

So, when I took a trip to the supermarket I went overboard with the "normal" food. With so much sugar and syrup and candy and ice-cream and deep fried spring rolls, it was near impossible to carry home. I made my self physically sick with stomach cramps, insane indigestion and a sugar headache that could rival the founder's of Baskin Robins. Even now, i'm just hold back on the verge of purging the contents of my stomach.

So I threw it all out. The candy and sugar and ice-cream and cereals and everything I bought for the ultimate sugar rush. Well, I kept the un opened packet of sprinkles and the opened toffee sauce, for Leila if she wanted.

What am I to do? I get so worked up about eating the right thing that the wrong thing becomes unavoidable. PEH! To blazes with the lot of it.

Also, I need to find me some happiness.

Fruit of the Moment: Passing the Time