Monday, May 3, 2010

Its on the Saturday isn't it?

In summary: today taught me that I have no affinity with the BRAND X signature.

When two lines of Underwear are canceled because your design wasnt up to scratch, it makes you very upset. Indeed it made me quite emotional.

Today, a good 10 minutes were spent trying to compose myself in the privacy of the men's room. This was after being informed that all of my work for one particular brand had been abandoned. Quite a blow I'd say. And out of left field for me. I just didn't know how to process it except with hundreds of tears.

I've only broken down twice before at work. Once when I was a prac student and told in a basic condescending way that I was a terrible teacher, I would never amount to anything, and have no creative skill whatsoever. This information I held in until getting to the car and then let loose. I decided never to work at that school when I graduated. And never have.

Another time was when I was locked in a room with my 2 supervisors, being heavily criticised for my first attempt at writing reports. This resulted with a composed walk to the Korean Office and an emotional phone call to my parents. They ended up coming down to work. To add to matters, I had the previous night come out of the closet to my best mate, and was disturbed when I got a phone call from his parents the next day (10 minutes before my "meeting" with my supervisors) asking if I knew where he was. As I didn't know the post emotional sledgehammer twisted the scenario into some kind of soap opera where my mate couldn't handle being the best friend of a homosexual and took his own life. This of course would have never entered my head, had my supervisors a) kept their office door open and b) treated a first year teacher with the support he needed.

You will be glad to note that the Principal of the school was horrified at how the situation was handled and I received a new supervisor as of that day.

Today, I was only told that all the work I had slaved, and done overtime for, and re-worked, and re sized, and re-everything over the past 5 months had ALL been scrapped. ALL of it. I'm kinda impressed how little crying I did. My only call for help was to Genevieve who told me I should print off as many colour posters as I could and visit a few porn sites. I did neither.

I even managed to stay at work for a further 2 hours, as working tirelessly on the unused designs had put me behind with every other brand that needed me.

Tomorrow will be a new day and I will be having loads of coffee. And with a new mindset that everything I approach for Brand X will be with a new mindset.

Fruit of the Moment: Improvised Grilled Eggplant & Veggie Sausage Sandwich

2 comments:

  1. Thanks for the turtles.

    Also, it is to be noted that I work for seven brands, so one out of seven is not too shabby.

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